Since yall hate yellowtail figured I would try a few different things.

Still nowhere near as bad as the "barefoot" abomination. Also dw, the kendall-jackson bottle was NOT consumed today in addition to the vendange, that was yesterday. The vendange was $11 for 1.75 L and still better than the "Barefoot" abomination my husband recommended me the first time I tried white wine. A 4 loko (Not the blue those make me throw up, there was an incident. Am physically incapable of drinking 4 lokos now.) would fucking taste better.

I don't know if it is a spiritual change or simply the change in alcohol, but I find this stuff doesn't make me violent and homicidal. It's nice. I think the difference may be…before I was drinking to feel something. Now I drink to feel nothing. I drink to feel the way I used to feel sober. My tolerance to this stuff also seems to be insanely high compared to vodka. 6 shots of vodka and I become stumbling, nearly blackout drunk. A 750 ml bottle of this and I can still pass sobriety tests. Fuck vodka lmfao.

The one I drank yesterday was just as good with just the right amount of "alcohol" taste. I love white wine so far, it doesn't make me violent when I get drunk on it, only problem is it goes down far too easy and is higher calorie so I can't afford to actually eat food. Like I said idk if the lack of violence is a result of a spiritual change or a change in alcohol. Think maybe change in alcohol because if it were spiritual I wouldn't be drinking to the point of drunkenness in the first place. My mother was primarily a white wine drinker when she was an alcoholic. I want my husband to call me. Why won't he call me?

I no longer want murder. I am just sad. God neutered me. For the better. Thank you God.